Our Grievest Moment

I'm so sorry guys if I wasn't able to update my blog for me and my family is grieving right now. After all the pains that my dad had felt because of his infirmity, he is now alleviated for he is now in heaven if there is. He spent three days in the hospital crying because of deadly pain. Last Friday, May 22, 2009, it all ended and my father died. It was one of the saddest moment if not the saddest time of our life. We were not expecting that he'll die that soon. That time was full of tears and condolences from relatives and friends. I felt darkness. I felt despair. I felt helpless. This coming Saturday, May 30, is the burial of my father and I am not attending. I couldn't dare to see my mom crying, my brothers and sister grieving. I dunno where will I spend my Saturday. I'm still puzzled.

Dad in the Hospi

I missed my blog a lot. For almost a month of not posting any, I am now in my classmate's house, using his PC and connection just to visit my blog.
We are now in one of the saddest moments in our life. Early this morning, my father was rushed in the hospital. He got no sleep because of severe pain. His body is bloated and he really looks like he's losing hope. I got a phobia with hospitals, so I dunno how to face that fear now that I really have to visit my dad. I dunno how to cheer my father and the whole family up. Even myself, I dunno how to console. Only few of my friends know my situation and I am thankful to those who extended their sympathy and prayers. I dunno til when will I be strong to take this all.