Dad in the Hospi

I missed my blog a lot. For almost a month of not posting any, I am now in my classmate's house, using his PC and connection just to visit my blog.
We are now in one of the saddest moments in our life. Early this morning, my father was rushed in the hospital. He got no sleep because of severe pain. His body is bloated and he really looks like he's losing hope. I got a phobia with hospitals, so I dunno how to face that fear now that I really have to visit my dad. I dunno how to cheer my father and the whole family up. Even myself, I dunno how to console. Only few of my friends know my situation and I am thankful to those who extended their sympathy and prayers. I dunno til when will I be strong to take this all.